4th - untitled

 The night is breezy,

Like the oceans would be,

It is quiet, even for me.

The talks I hear slowly fades,

A light shines up,

And I see your face.

It's empty as an empty can would be,

It's foggy, and as thick as it is.

Too careful to take a step in,

Nor wish to return back.

If only it is clearer.

Would stay and make it better.

3rd - Rejection

I've given up.

There's no used to look it up.

It's all a waste.

It's all useless.

I'm freeing my mind.

Im taking chances.

Im listening to you.

Im making choices.

Let them know.

So be it.

Thats what I heard.

Thats what I'll do.

But its too tough.

Too hard on me.

But not on you.

Its easy to watch.

Going for that.

That one you chose.

Things will get well.

As you said so.

Living a life.

That you know.

Roads too far.

Such blur for me.

Its what He said.

Its what Has done.

Maybe next time.

The turn is mine.

2nd - untitled

You seem too far

For me to catch

You seem as if

You wanted dead

Like I know little

And you know much

Long path before

Us stand in light

That light its own

You thought of things

That'll hurt you deep

You felt those feels

That'll haunt you more

You scream,you shout

Glancing and looking

With your eyes shut.

They said as

What they wish

They told us

We must forget

The moments that

Lived as we live

So life can be

And so be it.

Like it always does.

1st - Human n Flaws

kawan2... maybe u've read these before...tp i mmg suke sesuke hati n sengaja nk post n pnuhkan blog entry ni... hahaha... Have an enjoyable reading session.

I have lied,

I have cheated,

I told the truth,

I was not heard.

I have stumble,

And I struggled,

I have cried,

But not that night.

I can see,

But I was blind,

I have instinct,

But I denied.

Am flaws human,

Mistakes are mine,

Whisper my amends,

And whisper you goodbye.

_I'll be your chamberlain_

" If clouds were cotton, then you are candy, a taste wild, but dissolves when conjured
If rainbows were shawls, then you are thread, the building blocks, rarely noticed

If diamonds were grey, then you are darkest, they weep when you do, they bleach
The rainbows grow dull, the candy a lasting bitter, and the clouds float out of reach

Fate is sand, the wind blows, and I am but one grain.
My love, the diamonds long to shine, smile, and I’ll be your chamberlain "


*ini opening je heh~* Isn't it lovely? Actually, it's my friends FB wall post. I like how he put them together. And how he described it. I've been a fan of English literature since I knew about it. Always knew that language is my strongest point. *duh~ since i'm taking english class kn this sem.so what? let me bebel la~* But why am I in UTM doing for so long this engineering field?

I feel its challenging, i feel its risk taking, eye opening, and so many more. I like studying just as much as i enjoy eating spicy foods. My sayang once said, that i actually enjoy studying. Even though its stressful. Because eating spicy food is stressful and challenging, but i enjoy every bit of it. heeheehaa!! When, i leave school, i realize that my time studying was the best time in my life. *gila x?* 

But, its hard thou. Me not liking math subjects as engineering student. its like showering with no soap or shampoo. or so. i don't know. But, I can handle it. just it needs more exercise. My CEO always advise me to not give up, and always said math just needs a lot of practice. Its not the end of the world. I believe her. I've never give up. 

Just now, my lecturer opens up his book of student life to us. He told the whole class, that he wasn't even a science stream student, he took art. But, all of a sudden, he feels like doing engineering, and he went for it. It was hell - as what he said. Yes, i should know - since i'm really poor at science stream subjects back then. heh~  But its no excuse right? since, i've already have basics of it. 

For now, i'm starting back. from scratch shall i say. need to focus! 

*susah la ramai sgt member seangkatan da nk bina masjid.pastu, g majlis org, kne ar cantik2 bagai, bagi hadiah nk mula idup baru, manis2 muka sambil ber-reunion2 kt umah org kawen... ak bile lagi?? aarrgghh! stress!!! heeheehaa!!~  pastu td g men skuasy jap, tup2 kne get out dri court, nk bg laluan yg pro main... pergh, yg kite tempah awal2 pe kes... hahaha... mengong je nk komplen~ smart sungguh budak yg main skuasy td,, seb bek lpasan spm. hahahahaha~ *

babai korang. its all for today~ my babbling~

Comin' Home

this is purely a song i got from you tube after searching for Pixie Lott.

She has the most - almost the most amazing vibrated voice ever. 

This song in particular my favorite, simply because of the music, lyrics, and that it sends off the correct message i want to give to my love. hee~ i'm coming home....

oh wait!!! im not coming home. im going to UTM! whattt??? heeheehaa! enjoy!

:: Back Then ::

Back Then

Couldn’t help

I wouldn’t care

Back Then

Not much

You won’t matter

Back then

I would shout as loud

Fill my content

Back then

To live

I cheated, lied and steal

Back then

Without thoughts

I can hate

Back then

To front

I don’t tear up much

Back then

So tired

You won’t care

Back then

Shut

I stayed away

Back then

So close

We strayed

Back then

Was

Back Then

I was not

So sorry

So forgive me

As I was

And love me

As I am